A Former Lesbian's Moving Testimony of Breaking Free From Homosexuality

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A Former Lesbian’s Moving Testimony of Breaking Free From Homosexuality

By Matt Barber | charismanews.com

F-Bickle[Editor’s note: I have come to know Wendy and her story through an amazing set of circumstances that only God could have arranged. She is a delightful woman who loves the Lord with all of her heart and has asked BarbWire to share her moving story of redemption and freedom from homosexual sin through the power of Christ Jesus. Wendy has said that it is her hope that her testimony might resonate with even one person who can relate to the circumstances that Satan used to lead her into the homosexual lifestyle. If you are that person, then you (and God) will know it. What the enemy intended for evil, God is using for incredible good in the life of Wendy. The same can be true for you. —Matt Barber]

My name is Wendy and I was born in a small town in Virginia. I was in church every time the doors were open for as far back as I can remember. I also attended the Christian school within my church that was rooted deeply in an Independent Baptist doctrine.

My mama was very sickly and was in and out of the hospital. I have a sister who is almost four years younger than me and a baby brother who only lived for three days and then passed away. Mama died Christmas of 1982 at the age of 32. At the time of her death, I was 11 and my sister was 7.

My dad was a rage-a-holic and an alcoholic. He had wanted a boy so badly and lost his one and only son. I believe he decided to make me his boy or at least that is how it seemed. Especially as I got older, he treated me differently than he did my sister. Here is an example: When I got my first car, before dad would give me the keys to drive it, I had to change the tire, without assistance, as he stood and watched. My sister, he just handed the keys.

My dad verbally and emotionally abused my family. He was a tyrant, and as a little girl I thought to myself, if all men are like my dad, then I want nothing to do with men. I made a vow to never get married because men were not safe.

Due to my family’s rigid and extremely conservative views, I knew that if I told them, they would not believe me. I remained painfully silent about being sexually abused.

Satan stole my innocence, and I was exposed to things that I never should have been. As a young child, I was attracted to women
. My silence allowed Satan to cultivate a huge lie that confused my sexual identity. It was the birth of unnatural desires that would later manifest into full blown homosexuality.

I was in so much pain and confusion that one day I found some relief … with alcohol. I finally found something that would numb me and I could check out of reality. My drinking continued to get worse and worse. It is only by God’s grace and mercy that I did not get a DUI, go to jail, kill somebody or myself.  I suffered with depression and often struggled with suicidal thoughts. One night I was drinking and was holding my loaded gun, trying to talk myself into pulling the trigger. God saved me that night from taking my life with a phone call. I fully believe I was going to kill myself that night but God’s loving grace and mercy poured out over me.

I had my first consensual sexual experience with a girl at the age of 15. This led me into one unhealthy relationship after another. But sleeping with women was “safe” for me. It was the easy way out considering my fear and hatred toward men. All of those relationships ended the same way; with shame, regret, hurt, unmet expectations, broken promises and emotional pain. Yeah, all that and then some! And to top it all off, I tried to drink it all away. The lie I bought from Satan was that I just hadn’t found the right girl … I just needed to find her. The problem was that there was no right girl. I was absolutely, completely out of the will of God and His divine plan for my life.

One day a girl who I was trying to hook up with invited me to church, and I strongly declined. She continued to ask me … So, I asked her, “If I agree to go with you to church ONE TIME, AND I DO MEAN ONE TIME, will you please stop asking me to go to church with you?” She agreed that if I would go one time that she would never ask me again, so I went. I remember it was in February 2007 on a Wednesday night. I cried like a baby through worship and for the first time in my entire life, I felt like I was HOME. I belonged.

I continued to go to church every time the doors opened. In April 2007, I rededicated my life to Christ. As a small child, I had made an emotional decision to be saved. I know today that I had never truly surrendered my life to follow Christ.

The Lord blessed me when I found a group of believers who struggle with same-sex attraction who truly loved me with no judgment and taught me the root causes of SSA. God’s grace and His unfailing love is what set me free from the bondage of homosexuality. He gave me a way out. God has totally redeemed me and saved me from the chains of alcohol addiction and sexual sin. My heavenly Father began and will continue to heal all my hurts and fill the voids. I stand victorious and a child of the Most High King!!! Not because I deserve it but because I have a Savior who loved me first, while I was still a sinner. I have decided to walk and follow Christ. I will not let my past define me because I am who God says. I am beloved, cherished, a princess and daughter of the Lord, God Almighty!!! Thank you, Jesus, for saving me from a life that was leading me straight to hell.

“Unless otherwise specified, the opinions expressed are solely the author’s and do not necessarily reflect the views of Charisma Media.”


[EXTV Editor’s note: After posting this article we couldn’t help but observe the following disclaimer posted by Charisma Media

“Unless otherwise specified, the opinions expressed are solely the author’s and do not necessarily reflect the views of Charisma Media.”

Charisma Media or Charismanews is suppose to be a “Christian” news magazine. Their slogan is “Informing Christians from Spirit-filled Perspective” Yet they maintain a disclaimer on an article that testifies about the power of God’s deliverance and healing from homosexuality. So if the content doesn’t necessarily reflect the views of Charisma Media then does Charisma Media really reflect the views of the GOSPEL of JESUS CHRIST? ]


22 Comments on “A Former Lesbian's Moving Testimony of Breaking Free From Homosexuality”

  1. That’s a good question brother Tetaun.
    After reading the article that really touched my heart, I asked myself the same question.
    Who or what is Charisma Media really respresenting and whose view are they reflecting?
    If you ask me, the Editor’s note was totally unnecessary, but I believe that God is using this note
    to open our eyes. Be blessed Wendy and keep serving the Lord with all your heart.

  2. After fighting back tears of joy ( thanks guys for making a grown man cry) and reading the story again, I did notice
    their disclaimer and the EX editor’s note. My guess is that they don’t know that GOD can’t be brought to any man’s
    court. You may protest HIM ( at your own risk ) but, only because HE is MERCIFUL and wishes that none should
    perish. Did send an email to the story’s site with my concern for the disclaimer, saying that HE can’t be sued or disclaimed. How can you claim CHRIST and disclaim GOD’S will ( male / female roles), Wendy certainly gave HIM all the Glory and didn’t disclaim HIM that brought her from despair. Great post.

  3. Thank you again EXMinistries…totally awesome article. EXTV Editor, you have expressed the truth. The owner(s) of Charisma magazine need to repent and remove that disclaimer. Thank God for Matt Barber also, and he should probably seek God for another publication to work for. To God be the glory for sis Wendy!

  4. The thing we need to realize is that the enemy will use what ever he can to distract us from the power of God.
    This story is powerful and brings hope and prayerfully conviction to individuals hearts. God is a deliverer and the enemy wants to subtract from that fact. Let’s not get caught up in the disclaimer. God shall be Magnified and Glorified. Focus on the story and the fact that Wendy’s testimony/overcoming will set others free.

    God you are great. Thank you for Wendy’s life and her boldness to be transparent for that people will receive strength and courage. You are all that we need. Cover protect and keep your daughter. No nothing and no one harm her. Keep her steadfast and unmoveable in you. She shall do mighty exploits for you. Cause her to sound the alarm that you Can do exceedingly abundantly above all that we could ever ask hope or think. Cover her in your blood Jesus. Be a fiery hedge of protection.anoint her lips to speak of your good news. Stir up every gift you have placed within her in Jesus’ mighty name. Amen

  5. Stop reading charisma because of that very reason they to me have a form of godliness but deny the power of God. Which says whom the Son set free is free indeed ok. It’s a wonderful thing that happen to Wendy I’m so happy for her. I remember when I testified of my deliverance form drugs and alcohol. It was later said to me so your a recovering addict I was stunned it was like they never heard a word I said. I told them I am no recovering anything Jesus set me free. It’s a wonderful thing to know that I could be free in Christ Jesus.

  6. God is so awesome and merciful! These are real issues that need to be addressed and we as disciples of Christ need to be able to give the same love and mercy that Jesus did. Hallelujah!!
    Also ditto on the disclaimer for Charisma magazine it was totally unnecessary!

  7. Relax, people. It’s a standard journalistic/media disclaimer when someone other than the company itself is speaking. It doesn’t mean the article doesn’t reflect Charisma’s views at all. It’s just saying to take the article as the author’s words and views. Obviously, they wouldn’t have published it if it wasn’t in keeping with at least some of their core values. Great testimony!

      1. why would a christian publication have to add a disclaimer to the power of God to change a life ” GOD DID IT” there is nothing to disclaim. and it is possible possible for them to print something that is not a core belief “it’s a story that will sell. We here in America are just not going to stick our necks out to far on this issue but I pray for myself ” Lord help me if need be to put my neck on the chopping block like the Apostle Paul and like a contemporary example Pastor Lewis and Exministries. Thanks exministries for telling the truth

  8. Say you were on a watchtower. You say MY KING, THE ENEMY COMES! and then say to enemy, HEY YOU MY BE COMING BUT YOUR VIEWS AND WAYS DON”T BOTHER ME NONE! You would endanger yourself to your to the King, his troops and your fellow watchmen. Just saying.

  9. “But sleeping with women was “safe” for me. It was the easy way out considering my fear and hatred toward men.”
    It didn’t seem like she was a homosexual in the first place.

  10. Please understand that I’m not telling anyone to stop reading Charisma. I think people should read anything they want, keep the good stuff, spit out the bad. Reading keeps your mind sharp. It ( the disclaimer) just seemed out of place. Still haven’t gotten a reply from them and I suspect I won’t. Keep Reading the WORD. JESUS said HE foretold us all things. The disclaimer has been spit out of my mind. GOD Bless Wendy and protect her.This was truly a joyous story.

  11. I would be careful about interaction with any group comprised exclusively of ex-homosexuals. The behavior is very addictive and carries with it a very strong compulsion. As a Counselor, I specifically do not allow former homosexuals to mentor someone attempting to break free from the behavior. I treat ex-homosexuals as I would anyone with an addiction. I advise them to stay clear of anyone or situation that could contribute a relapse. God bless you and good luck with your recovery. Stay with God. “With God all things are possible.”

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